Thursday, December 11, 2008

I'll Miss You Dadi...


Hospital greens had been the colour of the month

For every time, she was there, they were there to welcome her

Those, and the pungent smell of disinfectants..

Everday, from dawn to dusk, she’d sit alone

The chair in the corner of the waiting hall, she’d made her own..

For they said, she wasn’t old enough to trespass the boundaries of the green curtains beyond the glass doors

Over the month, all she’d seen were nurses rushing in and doctors taking rounds,weary relatives at times..

She knew they had her granny in there, and hopeful granny would call her in one day she waited.. and waited..

When finally today they did call her...

Among a million wires, large monitors and machines she’d never seen..

Among suppressed sobs and sniffs ..

There lay granny..

Peaceful and calm,

Still and serene,

Her face whiter than the shroud that covered her today..





And they thought, she was too little to understand............

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

SOLITUDE...











pictures of my favourite corner at college.. my favourite bench facing "the budgy n bunny enclosure" as i call it.. can sit here for hours together just watching fluffy bunnies munching on greenies, or budgies meticulously preening themselves.. And at times just the musty smell of wet grass gives me a high..



If ever you find me nowhere, you know where to look now ;)



























































Sunday, November 9, 2008

Just Dropped by (again)


this friend of mine once called me " geeli mitti".. hindi for "wet clay".. and i proceeded to explain," Anyone can mould you into whatever they want you to be-you need to be strong and learn to say no to people..the world can be a cruel place "..

Amazed at how true this stands today.......

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

How Cute Is CUTE..??


THIS FRIEND OF MINE-ARVIND, OFTEN GETS PISSED OFF EACH TIME I USE THE WORD "CUTE" AND REMARKS IN A NICE-" YOU GOTTA ANSWER ME TODAY" LOOK- "DEFINITION KYA HAI TUMHARE 'CUTE' KA?? " (whats your definition of the word "cute.. ).. MAYBE BECAUSE I USE IT TOO OFTEN, MAYBE BECAUSE I USE IT FOR ALMOST ANYTHING I LAY MY EYES ON..
A CUTE BABY IS CUTE, BUT AN AGING ANATOMY PROFFESSOR WITH A NICE WHITE CROP ATOP HIS TEDDYBEAR FACE ?? I FIND HIM CUTE.. REALLY !!
A CUDDLY HAMSTER'S CUTE, SO IS A FLUFFY YELLOW CHICK, BUT BELEIVE ME, I FIND AN UGLY OLD BESPECTALED OWL CUTE TOO !!
SHAHRUKH KHAN MAYBE HANDSOME, BUT SHAHID KAPOOR'S CUTE..
AND CUTE IS THE OLD COUPLE WHO WALK THEIR WAY EACH DAY HAND-IN-HAND, STEP-IN-STEP..
THE NEW SIZE OF SPRITE EXPRESS IS CUTE..
THAT DIRTY DOG THAT TREATS MY HOSTEL COMPOUND LIKE HOME IS AN UGLY CUTE THING TOO..
THE HIPPO THAT PEED ON FARAH AND RAAD AT THE ZOO WAS REALLY CUTE TOO !! (REMEMBER DARLING?? )
CUTE ARE MY STUFFIES, BUT SO IS MY PILLOW !!
AND CUTE IS DONALD DUCK'S REAR WHEN HE WALKS..SWISHH SWING TO THE LEFT WITH A STEP, SWISHH SWING TO THE RIGHT WITH THE NEXT !!

AND YOU CALLING ME CUTE AT A PARTY, WHEN I EXPECT BEING CALLED PRETTY IS AN OUTRIGHT INSULT- REALLY, YOUR NICE POLITE WAY OF SAYING- YOUR UGLY !!

I'VE BEGUN WONDERING MYSELF.. HOW CUTE IS CUTE REALLY..ANY ANSWERS ??

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Knock Knock.. Here Comes Winter




Woke up this morning with a fresh positivity that i'd been deprived of all through October. October wasnt kind 2 me..I'm sure Nov will be..




Ran to change the calender sheets to NOVEMBER, before anyone else did.. wow!just that made me feel victorious- and why not, I'd mercilessly shooed away dreadful October !!




With November, I declare winter's arrival too.. it isnt even cold yet, not even mildly cool.. but so what, I'm the Queen of my psychology, and i decide when winter begins.. there is something wonderful about the season..In love with it completely..








  1. love that winter glow,early in the morning.. i dunno how, but somehow u actually turn 2 look really radiant and pristine after a good winter nite's sleep.. don't believe me?? check out for yourself..run 2 the mirror first thing in the morning!




  2. love the massive bedspreads, fluffy fleeces, warm comforters, heavy blankets that seemingly crush u under their weight- love 'em.. the heavier the better




  3. love woollens.. oversized pullovers (love my nails barely peeping out from the sleeves..;) ), fitted sweaters , warm socks, carpet slippers- somehow it makes me feel so huggable!!




  4. love the complacency winter infuses into me.. though dad n mum get pissed off with me when i become complacent.. specially when it comes 2 taking a shower.. not that i don't like taking a bath.. its just like winter makes life feel easy-paced... "isra take a shower- what's the hurry mama" kinda attitude!




  5. love physics for once!! why take pains to love the entire subject, maybe i just love what static electricity does to your hair and woolies- the crackles, the sparks, the works !!




  6. love the fact that the sun spares me a few months of tanning.. most people are delighted to see the sun in winters..ahemm...no thanks, i have no plans of joining your occassional winter sun baths!




  7. love the layer over layer of clothes hiding any sign of fat/ flab that may be.. If someone calls me fat in winters all I need say- I'm thin beneath my layers!




  8. Its when i get 2 wear all my oversized clothes... their "oversize" gets hidden under vibrant woollens




  9. I'm not much a dog lover really, but I'm terribly in love with those lil pugs n poodles in funny "dog jackets" and "checked sweaters" fruitlessly trying to keep pace with their masters !!




  10. love the colours of winter- deep misty blue and frosty white..



  11. love food in winter... its when u realise how good warm food tastes..unlike in summers,when everything around you is warm!! plus there's this delicacy called nihari, usually made in winters.. n believe me,its amaaazziiing!!


  12. love that slight shivering, the involuntary jaw movements, the sound of teeth trembling against each other.. as if u've just been switched to a vibrate mode!


  13. love curling up into a warm corner.. makes me feel like a soft ball of wool.. reminds me of 1day old chicks digging among themselves to find their sweet spot..


  14. love my kuppa.. freshly brewed,steaming hot ethiopian coffee.. keep my hands wrapped around the hot mug for as long as it warms up my hands!!


  15. doesnt snow at my place ... though i'd have loved it if it did.. :)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I'm gonna miss u forever..



Twas fun 2 b loved, and cared for
twas fun 2 b pampered endlessly..
To wake up 2 another sleepy voice,
to share each breath,across unknown distances..
The thought of being cuddled into the coziness of fluffy bedspreads,with u at my side..
And you, waking up 2 the nothingness of the dark night,just to whisper into my ears- "baby, i love u.."
I'm going 2 miss it all..had loved you with all your imperfections.. wish you had too...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

SAVOUR THE FLAVOUR OF.. PANI PURIS !!


Being one of the Halim clan, I was labelled a foodie since the day I was born.. for there isn't a Halim who doesnt love good food.. & an indian H alim at that!

15 years past my relatively uneventful existence was when I became a "resident" Indian & that was precisely when I discovered something I had unfortunately been deprived of all those years- PANI PURIS !

Pani puris, aka golgappas, gupchups, phuchkas & whatever else the diversity of the indian subcontinent calls it, are amazing crispy, crunchy hollow balls of fried flour or suji, with spicy mashed potatoes fed into them & filled to the brim with tangy water, thanks 2 fresh tamarind, with rich indian powdered spices- which seemingly excite every tastebud that exists!

The day I first had it was when I realised how wide I could open my mouth 2 pop one in without spilling out the water.. honestly! Though first attempts were failed attempts, even the dripping of water into my plate was fun !

And the way the crispy ball cracks between the tongue and palate, giving way to the water that floods the mouth & playfully flirts around with your tastebuds.. & the hint of mashed potato beneath your molar.. pleasure beyond words !!

OH & by the way, they r never 2 be eaten alone cz half the fun of it comes from watching others struggle to pop it in without crushing the delicate crisp between their fingers; or all the water that drips from the corners of their mouth and down 2 their chin..oops!! even soil their shirts!! :) ... or the series of expressions that take form..

... mouth wide open..

...cheeks ballooned..

...lips pursed tightly to avoid "leakage" :p

...that hint of alarm when they stain their shirts..

...followed by a quick blink as they savour the tangy liquid..

...a swallow..

and then that satisfactory grin..

For those never sensitised to it, you can even see visible goosepimples cropping up!!

Need i say more than YUMMMMMMM... !!